Saturday, July 31, 2010

To The Universe...I Feel Your Love...

I wrote this to the Universe on my Birthday in Bora the time, it seemed like the only love I could trust...

I feel your love in the warmth of the sun on my bare skin-

your love warms me like that.

I feel your love in the glistening of the waves at sunset-
your love shines on me like that.

I feel your love in the tropical rain storm-
your love nourishes me like that .

I feel your love in the warm, floral scented air-
your love brings me joy like that.

I feel your love in the compassionate palm tree in my sadness-
your love understands like that.

I feel your love in the billowy, downy clouds floating above me-
your love comforts me like that.

I feel your love in the deep blueness of the sky-
your love is true like that.

I feel your love in the crescent moon at dawn that conveys my first birthday wish-
your love is thoughtful like that.

I feel your love in the constellations that shine each night-
your love is faithful like that.

I feel your love in everything...
even through my broken heart...your love is like amazing grace-
your love is healing like that.

Journey Into Healing

Journey Into Healing

I had the amazing experience of attending one of The Chopra Centers’ signature programs, Journey Into Healing at the Biltmore Resort and Spa in Arizona in February 2010. I have been a Chopra fan for no less than 20 years now and to finally be doing this was a long-time dream come true.

There were many doctors, chiropractors and others from the health industry there. The Chopra Center or should I say the Chopra Center University is now accredited by the UC San Diego School of Medicine and is offering continuing education credits. It was quite an immersion into the Eastern healing art of Ayurveda integrated with the latest advances in medical science.

We were immediately taught Primordial Sound Meditation and were led into meditation morning and evening for 30 minutes twice a day with the magnificent Davidji. We also had the opportunity to do Yoga early morning and evening. It was fabulous. Each day in Yoga the instructor would go through one of the Seven Spiritual Laws of that particular day along with the Sanskrit Sutra. I found it very purposeful and intentional for me and it made my Yoga practice more significant. The Yoga was definitely one of the most enjoyable, invigorating parts of the day for me.

One of the other amazing benefits not to be overlooked was the food. All vibrant, fresh, colorful, vegetarian food, most of it straight from the Chopra Cookbook. Delicious salads, soups, entrees and desserts representing the 6 tastes of life: sweet, sour, salty, pungent, bitter and astringent. If only I had a cook at home to have these beautiful meals waiting for me when I got there!! I picked up my Chopra cookbook when I got home and realized most of the recipes were actually very simple to make.

For anyone that wants a better understanding of Ayurveda, mind-body healing, managing stress and food as medicine, Journey into Healing is for you.

You will come away with a great meditation practice, understanding of yoga, Ayurveda and the Eastern healing arts, what your body constitution is (Doshas), and a system of wellness that you can share with your family and friends that will assist them in bringing themselves into greater balance and wholeness.

I highly recommend Journey Into Healing to everyone. It was a 5 day transformational program that launched me into the Teachers path of Perfect Health. I will be attending Seduction of Spirit the end of March in Marco Island, Florida.

Gift to Self...on my 44th year...

Four Seasons Bora Bora

I wrote this on my 44th birthday in Bora Bora April 11th , 2010….

So I woke up early and went outside on the deck of our beautiful little hut on the water to meditate at 5am. I started out just honoring the earth for this beautiful place…especially the moon that was in the shape of a crescent hanging in the sky and cradled in the middle of it was a beautiful star…as I continued to look on it, it was the first to wish me a happy birthday…funny, I had forgotten the day when I arose so early. Next was the mountain, then a palm tree, a coconut and a squid…all wishing me a happy birthday. The Universe said, “We are happy you are here little one…we smile brighter because of you”. Nice…I smiled to myself. “Namaste”, I returned.

I love the earth, the planet, the Universe…all expressions of me. I am THAT moon…I AM the drop in the ocean and the ocean in the drop. I AM the beauty all around me.

Happy Birthday to me!! What gift can I give myself this year? Easy. The gift of loving myself on this 44th year. I’m going to give myself permission here and now to love myself unabashedly for one whole year…you (I) can decide when you’re 45 if you want to go back to self-loathing or not. I say fake it til you make it…by the end of the year you just may find you even like yourself…sweet…I’m doing it!! I vow to love every inch and pound of myself just the way I am.

What can I do to love myself?

1. Meditate at least once a day, preferably twice.

2. Do Yoga everyday even if it’s at home.

3. Eat the healthiest food that I can find.

4. Continue eating little or no meat.

5. Whenever a negative thought of self comes up, replace it with a good one.

6. Find compassion for others and be compassionate…maybe in having it for others, you will find it for yourself.

7. Find the stillness throughout the day woven in between segments, circumstance and conversation.

8. Acknowledge the powerful creator that you are.

9. Create, create, create.

10. Take advantage of the opportunities coming your way and make a contribution…your efforts will be rewarded.

11. Be a better friend…keep in touch…acknowledge the gift your friends are.

12. LOVE your kiddies…do everything you can think of to let them know (individually) how special they are to you.

13. FEEL your feelings…allow your feelings to come up…make a safe space for the sad ones.

14. Make choices and decisions from your HEART space…GET OUT OF YOUR HEAD!!

15. Remember you ARE love…no one can take it from you…the more you give, the more there is.

16. Remember you are safe.

17. GO TO BED before 11pm…that’s how you could really love yourself.

18. Get up early!!

19. Move back to a beautiful place surrounded by nature.

20. Take walks!!

21. Visit the ocean!

22. WRITE!!! …and SHARE your writings.

23. Here’s another great gift I’m going to give myself this year…the gift of BREATH…You get to breathe this year…fully and deeply. And after the year goes by and you decide you want to go back to scant and shallow, we’ll let you 

24. Love your body. Stop the derogatory self talk. At least for this year there will be no talk of boobs that are too small or hips that are too big…no tummy hate and no concern for aging.

I want to be in service and give more to others this year…my higher self says, “In doing so you will become closer to your true nature. In becoming closer to your truest self…it is even easier for you to love you…much harder if you are inauthentic.” The more you smooth out the rough edges and chip away at the fortress (around your heart) and get closer to your heart, trust your heart, and believe in your heart in all areas…when you are living in that space….it is here that you will love you more.

TODAY…July 30, 2010
I am happy to report that with the exceptions of 17, 18, and 19 I have done exceptionally well with my list in only 3 ½ short months. In fact, so much has changed for me since I wrote this, I feel like my DNA has been re-written. I have had more compassion for myself and others, I have been living from my heart space and feeling ALL of my feelings…every painful one. As a result, I feel more authentic in my own skin than I ever have and it has been easy to truly love myself. Because of all these things I have also begun to uncover my life’s purpose and have many creative projects that I am working on. Much more to come on all of this.

So it’s safe to say that after 3 ½ months of major shifts and transformation in my life…I will not EVER go back to the shut-down, cold hearted shadow self…even if it is easier. I will however, embrace it in gratitude before sending it on its way…It served me as a little girl to protect myself…now this little girl has no need of protection and is ready to live a big, open-hearted life.

Hello world…it’s a brand new day…

Friday, July 30, 2010


I had an experience at Seduction of Spirit, a Chopra Center event in Marco Island in March that I would like to share. I went into it with some questions about a relationship that I was in, wondering why things appeared to be a little “stuck” when everything on paper made so much sense…I was a little hurt and frustrated by the whole situation. I thought that I had been practicing the Law of Detachment but I realized I still had very strong ties to the outcome. After a couple of days of yoga and meditation this is what I wrote:

So it turns out, there is enough love in the world for me. I can’t force anyone to love me. I can’t give you a spreadsheet of all the reasons I am perfect for you…a resume is not what is required…why? Because I am enough. Enough without the resume, beauty and brilliance. I am enough and there is enough love in the world for me whether anyone returns that love or not. The ocean, the sky, the earth, the birds-all speak love to me. The Universe is nothing but love in all directions…the air we breathe, the space we maintain-ALL LOVE. Love is all there is.

And in the end we choose who we choose and it has nothing to do with their resume. My happiness, joy, and bliss are not tied to a choice made by someone else or to anything outside of myself. No one can take love from me because I AM love and I freely give my love to all. There is no loss, there is no separation…all are illusions.

I choose to be one who brings peace and embraces love in all its forms. The thing about love is that there is an unbounded,limitless supply. In fact, the more I give away and say yes to life, the more life gives and says yes to me.

I also remembered that I am safe…safe without a job, safe without a relationship, safe without a family…safe with nothing at all. Love is all around…the Universe loves me and I remembered that I am safe.

They say that nothing is new under the sun…none of these concepts are new to me, I know (intellectually) that I am enough, I know that I am love, I know I am safe and that separation is an illusion, but sometimes I forget…and in the space of “quiet” and “stillness” there is remembering…remembering who we really are, remembering of our divine magnificence , remembering of the role we have on this planet to shine the light of consciousness and awareness to all those who in a moment forget…..

Here’s to remembering...